Sunday, August 9, 2009

Worry

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As the new week approaches, worry is starting to set in. I will be beginning my Orientation for my new job tomorrow and even though I am VERY excited, I am also very nervous! Why is my faith so frail at times... what began as a step out in faith, has turned into fretting and apprehension!

On Friday I went to the hospital to finish up some paperwork, had my physical and updated my immunizations. As I signed some final paperwork, I happened to read that my shiftwork is to be second shift instead of first shift like I had assumed it to be! I began to panic and quickly started to doubt my course of action in taking this PRN (as needed) position. I asked the gal helping me to please clarify what I had read and she told me that they couldn't guarantee the hours I am to work, it would all depend on where and when I was needed. I took this job to try to get my foot in the door - which God graciously provided for me, why am I now unhappy with the outcome?

When I lived in Washington, my husband and I were always apart. He traveled all of the time and therefore we communicated mainly by telephone. For three long years we were apart more than we were together. That can be very hard on a marriage! I moved here to Georgia so that we would have a chance to renew our relationship and have the evenings to spend together after our long days at work. My first job that I got here in Georgia was working second shift (3:00-11:00pm) Now- here I am again - faced with working second shift! My class is ALSO in the evenings - two days a week........

I see a lesson in all of this - do I pray for God to use me and then tell Him that I don't like HOW he wants to use me? Am I to question His answer or am I to faithfully carry out the work set before me? Am I to worry constantly and strive for things to be different? Am I now to question whether this is all God's will for me - or just my striving for change?

I need to learn to have faith in GOD'S direction that He wants for my life and stop the constant protesting when it doesn't align with what I want!

In my Bible studies for this morning I read some things that God shouted out to me:

Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the Lord;
my cause is disregarded by my God"?
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the Everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and His understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:27-31

All of my worry about whether I will make enough money to help my husband and if I will have enough time to spend with my husband to try and strengthen our marriage - all of that WILL be worked out by the Lord who provided the work for me to do in the first place! I HAVE to have faith and believe this!

Another devotion that I read this morning spoke loudly to my heart:

"God does not grant the necessary grace before the trial. He builds the bridge when we reach the river. We often fear that we shall sink under the fiery trials that we see others endure. We see in the distance and are afraid of the mystery and anguish of what is to befall us; but we have not yet reached the crises, and grace is not vouchsafed before it is needed, 'Jesus comes with our distress' " - Mrs. Charles E. Cowman.

"The chains which bound Peter when he was in prison were struck off. He followed the angel sent to help him. On the way out of the prison they came to an impossible barrier, the iron gate leading into the city. But that "opened to them of his own accord" (Acts 12:10). "If you will do all the possible things, God will take care of the impossible." God did nothing for Peter that night, that Peter could do for himself. If the iron gate is locked and barred and staring you in the face, God's call is to do for yourself whatever He has asked you to do, and trust Him to do the rest.

The Lord in that great Sermon on the Mount said, "Be not therefore anxious for the morrow; for the morrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof."

While we let ourselves worry, we are not trusting. But still it is the habit of ours to worry. Bishop Quayle had a sense of humor concerning himself. So he tells humorously of a time when he sat in his study worrying over many things. He relates that finally the Lord came to him and said Quayle, you go to bed; I'll sit up the rest of the night."
Streams in the Desert Volume Two Mrs. Charles E. Cowman

I have been forcing myself to get up in the morning and devote my first hour to the Lord. I have been reading my Bible faithfully and praying for those that God has put on my heart. I truly feel that God has used this time to clearly guide me in the way that I should go. Do I feel that God is speaking to my heart through my Bible study time? Absolutely! It practically jumps off the page when I read it! I am trying to do all things in faith- now I must rest in that faith!

I will rest in His will -I WILL trust....

I hope this has helped YOU today as it has helped me! Many of you also struggle with stress and worry - turn ALL of your cares over to Him and let HIM stay up all night and worry FOR you! Be faithful in the little things and let God carry the rest!
Blessings to all of you this day and always,
Kymber

16 comments:

jeanne said...

Good morning Kymber, your struggle is a common one when change is about to be a part of your life. Take the first step and carry on. If it is truly not for you, change it again. Th leap of faith is in your power. Trust God. My prayers will be with your family for success in this new job.

Blessings and hugs, Jeanne

Kathy said...

We will pray for you Kymber. I concur with Jeanne in, try it.....if it's not a good fit for your family, then there's something else that God has. I remember in Experiencing Godby Henry Blackaby,he said that doing the will of God is partly making sure we are doing the last thing He told us to do. In other words, you felt like God said to take the job, so do so, and trust God on all these other details. Once you're there God may open up something different or clearly let you know this is not for you. By the way, I'm pryaing that the Lord will open the shift you need and want. With prayer, Kathy

Charlotte said...

Thank you for sharing your struggles and your inspirations with us. We all doubt from time to time if we are in the will of God and if we are doing what he wants or what we want. It seems to me you have found the answers. Trust God. Remember His ways are not our ways. Even when it seems everything is going wrong we may find out that it had to be that way so that everything could go right in the end.
Blessings,
Charlotte

Lisa said...

Kymber, God is going to work it out! Whatever the circumstance, I am praying and believing that it will be the absolute BEST outcome for you, your husband and your marriage!

The Bliss Journey said...

Hi Kymber Thank for your wonderful post. I too struggle with worry and I wonder why so much is happening and why everything is going wrong. Our lives are similar to yours. I am back in the medical field and working full time 3-11. I am also going to school full time during the day and then fly to work after school while eating a sandwich in the car. My husband works days during the week and double shifts with the NFL on the weekends. The only time we see each other is when we carpool. It's a crazy life but I know it's only temporary. My externship will be in March and I graduate in April. I never thought at this time in my life that I would be working so hard and going on only 5 hrs of sleep a night. But, it is what it is. I thank God that we have jobs and that he has given me the opportunity to use my past medical knowledge to pursue another medical career. Boy, it seems that life is all about reinventing ourselves. Have a wonderful week.
Kathleen

Renee said...

I really needed to hear this today and my favorite Bible verse gives me great comfort. (Is. 40:27-31

Cathy said...

Bless your heart, I can understand your concern, after having worked that shift at Wal-Mart. It's wonderful you are spending time in the Word. I pray God will work things out for you. We just have to turn the worry and concern over to the Lord.

Clif said...

Reading your words I thought back to all the years I spent preparing and preaching sermons. I always felt that I was blessed more by what I did and said than those who listened to me each week. I have the feeling that even though ALL of us have been blessed by this, that maybe you have been blessed the most. And that is not a bad thing! Soldier on!

Beginner said...

I think you have given yourself very good counseling. You have the will and God has the way. Keep the faith and he will reveal his way PRN.

shopannies said...

I have worked in the health care field before and do know how the PRN works but all can be worked out and where there is a need God will make a way. Take care and God Bless

RCUBEs said...

Hi sister! I just woke up from my nap and headed over here to say hi. I think it's just normal for us to be afraid whenever we are faced with a new challenge. But we believe by "faith" and that shields us from the arrows thrown by the enemies, and God is not a Spirit of fear but of love. And because perfect love comes from Him, that is all we need to drive out whatever fear is in our hearts.

I think you took that important first step in finding out if this is really the door where God wants you to be. As you continue trusting in Him, you will discover that in your heart where He wants you to go. He is leading the way and you just need to continue to follow.

I am keeping you in prayers. May the Lord continue to guide you, protect you and His strength be yours. Blessings and love to you sis!

Jillian said...

I would take the job even if it is not the right shift. God works in mysterious ways. You never know how soon it could be before you are "needed" to cover someone else's shift! This has happened to me more times than I thought! Plus, you never know who you are supposed to "meet" along the way that may need your faith and knowledge of God.

Anonymous said...

If God brings us to it he will bring us through it! Thats my motto and I stick to it! (((Hugs)))
Karyl

The Quintessential Magpie said...

Kymber, I will be thinking of you. Continue to pray that the Lord will move on the people's hearts who are making your schedule and work it all out. I wish you the best with your new job. And remember, He can move mountains and DOES.

XO,

Sheila :-)

kymber said...

Hi Beginner,
You gave me a giggle with your clever play on words -
Thank you my friend - I cherish your sweet comments!
((hugs))
Kymber

RCUBEs said...

Thanks for your lovely comment. Hope all is well. Just want to thank you so please come and visit again when you get a chance. God bless.